I should probably be making choices and figuring out my specialities now, but I don’t feel like I am getting any closer. It’s hard to make a choice because I really find everything interesting.
I really enjoy doing characters the most, but I hardly think characters are much good without an environment to live in. I enjoy doing environments, too, and there is probably a greater demand for it, but I feel like I would come out a lot weaker for gambling on that because it is clearly not my primary strenght. I think I am better at characters than I am at environments.
I don’t even know if I want to specialise in 2D or 3D.
Maybe it’s okay to have both and do a bit of everything? But maybe I won’t be so attractive an employee then. Do I really want to aspire to just being an attractive employee? Won’t I be happier chasing my own interests?
Life and me.
So two years into my education at university, I have even less of a clue as to what I want to do than when I started. Back then I wanted to be a concept artist, though to be honest I didn’t really know what being a concept artist was actually about. Now I know, and now I just don’t know what to do anymore. Maybe because I know about a lot more paths now? I don't know.
What are univerities for, really? Did you really want to ask that question? Aren’t you shooting yourself in the foot a bit, here? Well recently it seems a whole lot like they are made for earning loads of money to buy the vice chancellor a nice house. But ideally, univerities should be about creating a space and the means for students to learn and try and create, and they should be a place for critical thought and critisism as well as creative exploration.
Does DMU provide this for my course? I guess, but it is a very narrowed down and specialised space. There is no space for working with, say, traditional media. I suppose it makes sense, it's a digital course and we don't really have much use for anything else, do we? But I think it is poor that there's one tablet pen to share between all three years. Wow thanks DMU. Good thing I have my own pen.
Plato started the first university in ancient Greece. Sort of. For Plato and antique philosophers, knowledge linked to a good way of life and being a proper decent human being. Platonism neglects craft and what you produce with your hands; it functions purely on intelectual exploration.
Craft and practical knowledge had no place at universities until very recently. In Norway, practical crafts still have no place at university. In England, craft and theory belong in the same educational centre, but does still seem to be very divided, interestingly enough.
I’d say english universities have adapted more to the demands of the current job market rather than staying true to their roots.
I don't think that's a bad thing though. It’s good for me. I hardly want to study philosophy. I wanted a space to sharpen my skills and learn a new craft, not somewhere to express deep inner thoughts via “fine” art by rubbing myself naked on a canvas. Which is why I chose an education in England.
This toilet is a dadaist, and is actually a rejection and critisism of "this sort" of art.
So what am I going to get out of three years at university? The opportunity, time, structure and space to learn new things and sharpen my skills. I was hoping I'd have a clear way in life by now but, as I said earlier, I am just more lost than ever. I hope that, during my final year at university, I will figure out my choices a little bit better.